fiction short story

He's not my first love, my first love came when I was child and honestly I have forgotten who he was. He's the one person who said I love you in the morning, who told how pretty I'm, who asked me have you had your lunch,who reminded me to pray (even he not remind me I never forget to pray, lol), who encourage me everyday ...as woman you felt happy when a guy  who you love so much did things like that. 

Maybe I'm too late for relationship, in early 24 year I committed my self for having relationship with him.  the relationship is not going to be as I expected.  Love is not enough to build relationship, there's such as communication, trust, same purpose, and willing to be together.

We decided or maybe the right words is he decided to end this relationship. I'm sad, hurt, confuse, broken... I get lost for a while. . I was crying all the time over 2 months, it's really takes time to realize that I'm the one who was leaved by person that I love so much. 

so lucky I have some buddies who always cheers and care to me so much. They said you'll be okay, let's move on soon, you pretty and smart just pick one guy it's not problem (too much, okay it's lebay pisan) or the extreme one he don't deserve  you!!!    

I erased our pictures, erase all the pictures from my pc and phone I hope it'll help me to forget him.I thought my wound has been healing, but last night I saw my pc (long time not use my private pc), I found a folder full of photos, there was our pictures... our last pictures. I remember the moment when he finally finished his mini thesis draft, we went to his supervisor mini thesis for seeking his sign in the draft. that moment full of happiness, full of love and I felt happy for his achievement in his study.. after I memorized the moment, I was crying over the night.

Now I have to realize, move on is not choice, but  it's must for me. no more tear (hopefully). 

everybody has their love story, this is maybe not happily ever after story it's just one upon time story *lol* 

Before Ramdhan I have asked forgiven for all mistakes that I did to him, let's start new chapter.. tomorrow will be better a day, Amin ya Allah. 

"She"

 She is slim woman (but now Chubby :P), who walks with confident and proud. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. You will see her walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection.

She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despairs with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now. She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expects respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate.

If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who opens the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret; you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent..

She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. She only searches for true love, not just any love. Her love is an ideal one.

She likes to think no one is neater than and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angle again. If you have a date with her, you’d better be there on time. Flowers and sweet word can calm her down.

If you want to say sorry, make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up event; it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean.Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much.

Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too. Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress, and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

Maaf yah

setahun belakangan ini rasanya panjaaang banget, banyak banget kejadian yang aku lewati, banyak juga peran yang aku mainkan, kadang jadi temen yang nyebelin atau temen yang care, kakak yang hobi ngomel atau baik hati, jadi anak yang manja atau super dewasa ah pokoknya mah banyak lah. terlepas dari itu pasti banyak kesalahan yang aku lakukan baik itu sengaja atau pun gak sengaja, menjelang Ramadhan ini aku mau nyicil minta maaf nya, sebelum ramdahan datang supaya ibadah aku juga lebih khusyuk dan berkah, Amin ya Allah.

masker Botani dan Faceshop

Aku gak terlalu concern ama perawatan wajah, dari dulu ampe sekarang cuma sekali ke dokter kulit pas jaman kuliah tingkat akhir gara2 mupeng ama wajah temen aku yang makin kece pulang perawatan, eh setelah 6 bulan perawatan kulit aku kok malah jerawatan gak karuan dan gak ilang- ilang jadinya kembali lagi deh ke Olay cuma 20 ribu pula :)

aku paling seneng maskeran abisnya santai dan bisa sambil tiduran dirumah, tahun lalu pas pulang dari korea aku shopping face mask nya the faceshop ama etude segambreng, soalnya lagi black friday jadi discount 50% so beli stock buat 3 bulan deh, pas stock abis mau beli ke outlet Faceshop di mal kaget bener harga nya 4x lipat lebih mahal, aaa I can't afford it. bayangin ajah kalau disana aku beli 7rb/pcs di Indo jadi 25rb yammpuuuun kan seminggu aku 1-2x maskeran bisa rugi bandar :( akhirnya pas annes ke korea aku nitip stock masker deh. 

Pas jalan ke botani mal di bogor, aku maen ke outlet nya botani gitu disana banyak banget skin care oooo senengnya, apalagi natural jadi gak terlalu banyak zat kimia nya, aku sempet beli banyak masker buat stock harganya juga murah 7rb rupiah ada bengkuang, wortel, tomat, dan lain2 kalau mau beli ternyata di MOI juga ada kan gak begitu jauh dari kantorku yang sekarang :) 

sebenernya kalau dari efek antara faceshop ama botani sama aja, bikin wajah kerasa lebih lembut hanya aja kalau dari segi pemakaian botani lebih ribet harus diseduh pake air, belum lagi kalau ketiduran jadi berantakan di kasur dan kering banget :( beda ama faceshop yang tinggal pake dan kalau ketiduran kulit kita masih tetap moist :)

nah pas acara training di penang aku ketemu orang korea, namanya serena kita sempet beberapa kali hang out bareng gitu kemudian aku bilang deh kalau aku suka banget ama skin care korea terutama masker nya hihihi.. tanpa diduga pas last minute balik ke bandara serena kakao aku kalau dia mau ngasih beberapa pcs masker, dan aku boleh kakao dia kalau mau beli skin care disana nanti dikirimin biar harga nya lebih murah pas ada black friday hihhihi... *tapi ongkir nya berapa yah?*

aaa senengnya, pas aku cerita ke si zulmi dia bilang "ah jago speak lo kalau ada modus hahahah" ih ini mah namanya rejeki makanya baek kalau jadi orang hehehhe...

Nb: kecantikan hati tetap perlu diperhatikan lho, it's more important, so ladies yuk ah cantik inside and outside

Metamorfwinda

iseng liat foto Facebook 3 tahun yang lalu hihihihihi

I don't need more drama!@#@#$%$%^^&&

Aduh ibu yang geulis, bageur, pinter please don't ruin my mood dengan sesuatu yang belum jelas, kalau mau klarifikasi yah langsung ke orang nya, you're too old for doing something immature :( 

arrrrrrrhhh.. bodo amat, i dont care, I don't need more drama in my life right now.

ya ampuuuun JKT 48

Ceritanya malem malem temenku bbm

myF(my friend): "mba cowokku ngajak balikan lagi kemarin"

me : " terus gimana?"

myF: " dia ngajuin syarat, aku udah oke tapi pas aku ngajuin syarat dia gak boleh nge fans lagi ama JKT 48 dia gak mau, abisnya mba ampe wallpaper hp ajah JKT 48 :"(  gimana gak dongkol"

me :" jadi batal balikan lagi dong:"

myF : "iyah mbak gak jadi aku mau move on"

ya ampuuun kok bisa yah ada kejadian kayak gini -_-