dear my problem, please go away!!

I want to disappear right now!!! lelah banget, jenuh, bosan, statis please give me a break!! setiap orang memiliki masalah yang berbeda, I believe Allah never gives you more than you can handle tapiii terkadang gue sering merasa masalah gue tuh besar banget i Couldn't handle it all by my self. I feel like the most miserable person in the world, ya Allah maaf. apa perasaan kayak gini normal terjadi di setiap orang? atau emang gue aja yang kurang bersyukur dan lebai, terkadang masalah besar yang gue hadapi lebih seringnya adalah masalah yang gue sendiri gak bisa usahakan atau upayakan,i have no option here!!!
somebody said "but it make you strong than others", but right now I just need normal life, normal problem just like others people. 
#downbanget

Today My Life Begins

aku suka banget lagu brono yang ini kayaknya bikin semangat banget apalagi kalo lagi down kayak gini, setelah beberapa hari gak cek fb ternyata banyak banget kabar bahagia beberapa teman mau menikah atau sudah menikah, beberapa teman lanjutin pasca di dalam atau luar luar negeri huwaaaa ... padahal kan baru lulus belum setaun tapi kok orang2 pada move really fast gitu, so how about me? yes I'm still here, nothing special happen in my life, miserable banget sih gue. tapi tiap denger lirik lagu si brono bikin aku semangat, yaaaa leave the past behind cz today my life begin .... ini lirik lagu nya...

Today My Life Begins

I've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (Ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting It's mine for the taking,
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
and I've learned how to leave it where it is
and I see that I was wrong
for ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me,
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

life's too short to have regrets
so I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me,
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins,
today my life begins...

enumenator riskesdas 2013

Bulan may-juni ini sibuk jadi enumenator Riskesdas 2013, setelah pelatihan 10 hari di puncak finally kita kudu turun ke lapangan. Kebetulan aku dan teman2 dapet lokasi yang benar-bener di pelosok banget. Lokasi yang jauh, sulitnya menemukan air dan makanan  buat aku untuk gak berhenti ngeeluh, but how lucky I am punya temen-temen kelompok yang bener-bener support. Ada Firman ketua kelompok yang totally kind and funny but a little bit a coward, ada teh meli yang gak bisa banget kalo gak makan nasi sehari but totally awasome to arange our financial outcome, ada ita yang rewel banget soal makanan tapi kalo disuruh kerja cepet banget beresnya, and the last our lovely youngest sister pipit yang ringan tangan kalo di suruh2 tapi kalo udah ngambek bikin bete orang sekampung :P

Hari- hari berat dan lelah yang aku lewati setiap weekend menjadi the sweetest memory in my life because of them. Selama menghabiskan waktu bersama mereka, banyak sekali pengalaman hidup mereka yang menginspirasi, aku juga belajar bagaimana cara berpikir, bersikap dan mempertahankan idealisme. Selain itu pula aku belajar dari warga yang aku wawancarai di setiap rumah untuk selalu beryukur bersyukur dan bersyukur dalam menghadapi hidup no matter what, kebetulan blok sensus kami berada di pedesaan yang ekonominya menengah kebawah, belajar juga dari sosok pak bambang our lovely PJT who is very wise and down to the earth person.


even just a few days we spent together but it will be unforgettable moment in my life.. totally awasome...